so next month i’m graduating from cosmetology school. i never thought i would go to school for hair, and honestly, i’m not entirely sure if i want a long-lasting career out of this… i’m 22, and most people i graduated high school with are graduating from college now… that realization sometimes upsets me- that i chose to go one way, when most people went another. but academics were never quite my cup of tea. i need to physically be doing something, creating, what have you - to enjoy myself… i’ve always been like this, even as a child. but regardless of when or where i decided to go to school, i’m really proud of myself. 

yet, i constantly have this anxious feeling about getting older and accomplishing my goals. i feel like i’m going to run out of time when i finally have the resources and finances i need. i know i should take things one day at a time - but i want to do everything at once. my thoughts just combine into a hurricane of a billion things i need to do before i can just relax. and now that graduation is close and things are becoming more and more tangible, i’m obtaining this ridiculous phobia of success. i know i have potential… i’m just terrified and excited of where i’m heading. holy shit - i guess this adulthood.